I need elves. Like little tiny ones who come in and fix your shoes while you sleep.... but these make hundreds of little flowers and spacer beads to my exact specifications for my kits.... or I need to be Marcia DeCoster.... one or the other.
I'm going CRAZY getting these beads made for Bead and Button.... and right behind it are Best Bead Baltimore and classes in Michigan.... so I don't see an end in sight.
I know the elves aren't going to happen....and because of that SOMEONE has to make these beads that go into my kits... because the kits are designed around them and I'm the only one who can make MY beads, so I'm stuck being the designer AND the bead factory.
WHY do I design things with my beads in them??!!!!! Why can't I be Marcia??!!!!! She blogged today about being in production mode for Bead and Button too.... but SHE put together all the beads for 4 kits today... FOUR!!!!!! I haven't even MADE all the beads for my projects yet... let alone started kitting them with seed beads and I've been in full-production mode since the end of March. It's not fair. It's really not. (and I love Marcia... I really do... I'm just pouting about my own circumstances and the pout-fest was brought on by her beautiful blog post....and don't even get me started on how pretty SHE, herself/her house/studio always look in photos. I can't even begin to think about that kind of stuff right now!!!)
I think what really gets me is that I want to bead.... not MAKE beads, but bead... design, be creative, have FUN. I have SO many great ideas swimming around in my head, but every day I go to the torch and make beads for the kits instead of being able to work on these new ideas.... and the bigger frustration? The more successful I am with these kits, the less time I will have to work on the new stuff.
I see other beaders/instructors posting about their new designs, sitting and working on things, plotting their next move, their books, etc. I can't even think past the projects I'm currently teaching because I'm also the bead-supplier!!!!!! I have to make all these freakin' specialty beads!!!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! (please imagine me in full tantrum mode, throwing myself on the ground)
ok... time to pick myself off the ground and get back to work. There are beads to be made.
Tiny blah blah blah...
coffee today - obviously too much (but I only had one cup)
music today - obviously not mellow (Groove Tunes dance mix)